For today......

Outside My Window... It's cloudy, I keep seeing raindrops on my window but it doesn't seem to actually rain.  The trees finally have Pussy Willow and Catkins on them...still no leaves yet or blossom...the last couple of days the grass has really greened up!! Yay for green!!!  Yay for green!!!  :)

I am thinking...how lucky I am to have such wonderful friends.  I really do have such wonderful friends.  I am also thinking that this ham and tomato sandwich I just made in this yummy french bread is DELICIOUS :)  And that many good things have come out of my marriage ending - including the chance for me to get to know my children more on an individual basis...it's much easier now for me to take each one out separately.  I'm not sure why but it is.  Like tonight, I'm taking Abigail out for dinner alone - just the two of us.  And last Sunday I went out just with Laurence, and a few weeks ago I went away just with Susannah...and a few months ago it was date night with Sam...and a few weeks ago date night with Chris...for some reason it just didn't happen when I was with lloyd.

I am thankful for...being open minded about the future, being in a good position despite getting divorced, Some people aren't so lucky.  Being open to self help books, therapy, journaling - because this has helped me move forward much faster than I would have otherwise I'm sure!!  Especially considering how difficult a divorce I am having to cope with - yet really I am happy and content despite of it

From the kitchen...cinnamon buns that Susie made from school, low cal yogurts, ice cream in waffle bowls, cinnamon tablets, nice breads, coffee....I want to lose weight but I'm craving coffee and carbs...

I am wearing...a towel on my head and a damp towel wrapped around me - I just got out of the shower as I am getting ready to go out for the evening :)  

I am creating...canvases...many canvases. Art journal pages.  

I am going...to The Melting Pot for dinner with Abigail tonight...to celebrate a VERY belated birthday dinner with her :)  She has chosen to go for fondue :)  So we are dressing up and going for dinner......

I am reading...a fabulous book I picked up called 'Rebuilding - When your relationship ends' by Bruce Fisher.  It's really good and it's a great way for me to reassess how well I've done and how far I've come over the last year...By reading through the chapters I've been able to see how well I'm doing and and other things I need to work on.  I'd totally recommend this book to anyone going through a separation or divorce - or even marital problems!!


I am hoping...I hear from my lawyer tomorrow - I emailed him about a few things today - Lloyd was a total donkey today and trying to be a complete control freak all day!!  I called him on it several times and told him I was forwarding his emails to my lawyer because I was tired of it!  He even told me he was pulling the children away from their school board and putting them in to school - which my lawyer has told me he can NOT do....he knows this too.  He also tells me things like I ahve to sign the papers now and the longer it takes me to sign the papers the more my settlement money and spousal goes down and down.  I'm sure he thinks I'm stupid!  I'm sure he thinks I will just be so scared and so ignorant that I will just sign because I'm scared and believe him.  So then he says he will get a judge to force me.  So I just forward his emails to my lawyer.  Hopefully I will hear from my lawyer tomorrow.  I feel better when I hear from Jerry - he normally just tells me not to worry about it at all and there is nothing Lloyd can do.

I am hearing... The kids arriving back from their Dads...peace is over...it's been a lovely evening with just Abby...since we've been home she has been working on her French school work and her language arts on the bed...but now they are home the house is filled with chatter again :)

Around the house...I'm hardly ever home lately....place is a mess, I want to move but I still haven't heard yet whether I can start looking...I so want to put an offer on the house I want!!  I want to start packing and clearing out clutter!!!  I'm excited for our new start :)

One of my favorite things...being single and independent and the thought of a new start :)

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week...swimming, roller skating - both at Festival place and also at the roller rink, Katies crossing for ice cream...celebrating Mothers Day with my gorgeous children :)  Taking Laurence to his tonsil check up at the hospital.....Watching Susie in her sports day....