And...here we go!
1. Old me would worry and cry and wait for someone else to take control or do something or make a decision; new me takes control, doesn't pay attention to silly nonsense and knows that I am doing all that I can possibly do and therefore whatever will be will be and that is all I can do.
2. It feels good knowing that I am taking responsibility and I know that whatever happens at least I will be able to look my children in the eye and tell them I did my best.
3. So...in a way this has been a huge adventure and learning lesson and really the BEST thing that could have happened to me - and the the challenges it is forcing me to face over the next few months are also going to be extremely exciting.
4. Everey month, every week...almost daily I face a new adventure and a new challenge and I overcome it - and I am able to see that I can DO IT ANYWAY....I am so much braver and stronger than I ever thought possible right? And it is such a good feeling :)
5. The big difference is that I am surrounded by people who believe I CAN do this - rather than someone who constantly puts me down and makes me feel like I can NOT do anything.....when someone does everything for you, you end up thinking you can't do anything for yourself.....but actually I am a very capable person...and now I'm surrounded by people who believe in me and support my goals and dreams and my new career and WANT me to succeed :)
6. Being successful at doing what I LOVE makes me happy. And now I have THREE jobs doing EXACTLY what I love to do....
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to relaxing in the warm by the fire after a tiring and busy day, tomorrow my plans include seeing what the children feel like doing as we have no plans as such - and dropping laurence at the twins house for his sleepover... and Sunday, I want to meet JoAnne for brunch on Whyte Ave and then take Rosie to the dog park for a long walk - OR take her to the ravine or to Elk Island park for a walk somewhere nice!
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