Tonight as I drove up in to the West Edmonton Mall parking lot, I was thinking about how much I've changed....and again on the way home, when we decided to head down Calgary Trail...it hit me that I didn't even think about what I was doing or where I was going.
I used to be such a nervous driver. I would have a panic attack about driving to West Ed Mall. I would plan my route and think about where I'd park - and what if's.....
I'd want to be home before dark and never EVER go faster than 80 on Whitemud. I would NEVER dream of driving along Whyte Ave or downtown!! OMG no!!!
And planning a road trip??? haha don't be silly!
But now, now I just go - wherever I want to go, and don't even think about it! In snow, rain, sunshine....day or night. In fact it is now ME that people ask to drive somewhere if it is downtown or somewhere difficult, because they know I don't mind doing it!
Filling the truck up with gas, washing it, taking it for it's service and to get the tyres changed...it just isn't an issue.
I have no idea why I was so anxious about it in the past. I have sooooo much more freedom these days - and we do so many fun things - and when I want to go to an event/ festival or workshop, I don't have to concern myself with where it is or where I will park. I just go!
All those wasted years. I am so happy that I was given no choice but to gain this independence. I know my life would be so very different otherwise. It is one of the HUGE blessings from my divorce. It really has been life changing - in a good way. :)
20 hours ago